These photos were actually taken before the New Year, but I never got to publish them on my blog. I still had a bit of tan on my skin! I feel like I’ve changed so much the past few months. My highlights definitely have grown out. It’s really odd how much women’s appearances change in such a short period of time, because of all the new techniques they learn about grooming or just because of a change in taste. Perhaps one of the most effective catalysts of all is a change in priorities.
At the time these photos were taken, I was very much consumed by physical appearances—not just mine but everyone else’s. That’s just what happens when you’re in the business of fashion. You judge everyone and everything, physically. It’s expected and rarely if ever, shamed. No matter how much I convinced myself that my obsession was for educational or art purposes, vanity and materialism were taking over. The pressure of getting yourself noticed and comparing yourself with other bloggers are partly to blame for that.
It’s understandable and even expected for a fashion or beauty blogger to be vain in all other circumstances except if you’re supposed to proclaim modesty. I find it more and more ironic everyday that the concept of modest fashion blogging even exists. I know by even mentioning this, I’m going to get nipped in the bud! Don’t get me wrong, I still like pretty clothes and things. I am a woman. I believe part of yearning for beauty is in every person’s desire to seek God. Even more so, I like to think and write. I don’t think those two things will ever go away.
It’s just that it’s been so common to see so much hate and criticism amongst the modesty community. There is that present irony of flaunting oneself to the world to show one’s modesty and the problem in the fact that modesty is so subjective. It could be about not showing certain body parts. It could be about not wearing makeup or jewelry. It could be about not showing your hair. It could be about not talking about yourself highly or too much. It could be about not posing flirtatiously. It could be about not showing photos of yourself much at all, meaning absolutely no “selfies.”
All these things and more surround the concept of modesty. It is very difficult to embody this concept in a modest fashion blog. This very controversy is the subject of a few hate e-mails I’ve gotten over the years. One was even sent to me unknowingly. It was hurtful to say the least. More so, it was disappointing. It was disappointing that gossip is so common and accepted even in a group of good doers.
Another controversy involves celebrities who are famous through their faiths. They are a common sight. I kind of cringe at the idea of a Jesus Superstar plastered all over TV screens and magazines. I start to wonder and question the authenticity of anything so commercially magnanimous. Temptation is especially present when fame and money come into the picture. We are humans. Without a complete redirection of priorities and eradication of desires, temptation is still a problem. I’ve always wondered how these mega pastors, TV evangelists, and faith-based pop stars stay true to their beliefs. I can’t say it’s impossible, but it sure must be very hard. I personally don’t know if I could handle it.
Sorry for the weird pose below. I really happened to like my fountain hair that day! I’m not really a flirty person at all. I do like to be stupidly girly at times to a fault. That is why many people often get the wrong impression of me.
As for me, I am not famous. I’m glad. The temptation to be so vain that no one matters to you but yourself is something I do not wish on anyone. It’s a complete emptying of the soul. It’s easy to spot conversations, if they are even worthy to be called that, that are completely one way. Often times and sadly, bloggers who are just out to get fans and raise numbers can be so vacuous that they only communicate with others to get plugged. Sure, I’ve been on that road. You have to start somewhere to be someone recognizable, but I’m tired of it. I was never one to compete. I wish people were kind and more genuine. Ironically, it’s very rare to find the lambs amongst wolves.
Now on to lighter things! Let’s talk about clothes…
How cool are these tops I got above? They look exactly like my 60s stewardess shift dress! The geometric black and white crop top and high waist ripped jeans are from Rainbow. These jeans don’t actually have holes, though! That’s what I like about them. I actually really like a lot of what Rainbow has! It’s a hidden gem if you want to save some money. Many of their clothes are cheaper than Goodwill’s. I don’t remember where I got this jacket, but I like how Chanel-esque it is.
To wear a really cute crop top without showing your belly, you can use a hip hugger band, kind of like a pregnancy belt. Layer without the bulk! Underneath my crop top, I am wearing Kosher Casual’s Hippies. See below. You can search for it on their website by clicking here:
These hippies are beyond helpful! They need to be in everyone’s dressers. It is looser than a tube top, so it fits on your hips. A tube top or bralette would just leave you with lines around your hips and would be uncomfortable to wear. This hippie is designed to that it is tight enough though not to slide around too much. I’ve been wearing it pretty much everyday to cover my butt crack! I have a long torso, so this is just perfect.
Top & jeans: Rainbow – Belly & back covering: Kosher Casual – Nude Heels: Nine West – Purse: Gucci