Winter is a time when many of us are feeling sad and lonely, regardless of circumstance. I find myself feeling most vulnerable on winter nights—the combination of cold weather and early darkness just tears me down. I am mostly introverted, but when the sun goes down, I am often needing and wanting company. I have my husband, and he is delightful and so much fun, yet I still get the blues. Didn’t I say, no matter the circumstance? Listening to music helps somewhat, but the songs that find me end up complimenting my mood. I don’t know how long I’ve been like this. but it just further reminds me of the importance of getting sunshine!
When the sun is bright, I just feel like everything is or will be okay. The feeling I get when I’m basking in the sun is like the feeling of having someone’s arms wrapped around you, keeping you warm. In that moment, I feel loved. Secure. Protected. Special. Beautiful.
No matter what kind of woman you are, no matter your figure or profession, I think we can all agree that sometimes we feel like we’re not enough. It’s a joy to be a woman in many ways, but it also feels like a curse. In particular, our desire to be pursued and appreciated never ends. We are trapped in the illusion that our worth equates our beauty. Even after life settles down in a societal-familial sense, things never really settle down. Men on the other hand will always want to keep pursuing women, no matter what circumstance. It’s human nature—but not necessarily the good kind.
This is how I feel during the winter:
When things change in your mood, your career, your happiness… find your constant and be grounded in it. What doesn’t shake, even amidst all things that do? Even when the sun goes away from our view, it is always there. It’s always working in the background even when you blame it for seasonal sadness. Dig even deeper, and you will find true joy at the source of it all, our Creator, lover of your soul and appreciator of your beauty.
Wearing: Vintage layering bib (fake collar) – Banana Republic 3/4 sleeves top – Ross high waist plaid skirt – Boohoo Chelsea boots – Burlington coat